Initially, Nicole wrote this book as a way to help get the message out to not be afraid of death.  She literally has notes going back to 2009 when she started writing about her accident, but what she didn’t realize was that writing the book actually was one of the primary ways in her healing journey. In essence, she was writing it to heal herself.  Now, she hopes it is effective in helping you heal any fears you have about death.

My True Conversion

All of us fear death. That fear remains below the surface of conscious awareness most of the time for most of us, and yet none of us remains immune. After all, what is fear if not the body’s reaction to the possibility of its own end? 

Name any fear. Fear of poverty. Fear of failure. Fear of abandonment. Any you can come up with, I can trace it back to this primal fear of death. The body is a collection of programs, all of them designed for survival. 

But I fear rejection, you tell me. That’s not about dying. 

Isn’t it, though? As a child, your body very much needed the support of your parents in order to survive. You physically needed their acceptance. On a grander scale, we have needed acceptance in the human tribe for physical survival, too, along with emotional well-being. If you fear rejection, at least part of that fear comes from your body’s fear of death.

Eventually, however, all of those programs will one day fail. You will die. The body you inhabit will cease and start decomposing. Why, then, do I make the audacious claim that you are deathless?

I will spend the entire book answering it. Along the way, I hope you, too, will find answers. Insights. Understanding of your own relationship to the big stuff like God, the meaning of life, how to live well, and, yes, how to die. I’m talking about your own answers here, not just mine. I don’t promise to deliver the five steps to instant happiness or the three easy and simple techniques that will totally revamp your life. Just a bit of what I’ve learned from doing my own dance with death.

I feel deep, deep gratitude. In spite of – or maybe because of – the many challenges the crash has created for me, I am grateful for what happened. I am grateful for the many loving people who have helped me find my way through them. And I am grateful, deeply grateful, for the opportunity to share it all with you.